My book is out. It is out in the world like a new baby… But I already have two babies—okay, one is almost six and the other is more of a toddler but nonetheless they are and will always be my babies. I wasn’t expecting to have a third. Somehow, this book is trying to wrestle away attention and focus from the rest of my life. I thought once it was out, published and completed, things would slow down. I’ve come to realize over the last week, this is not how it works.
What drew me to writing was the joy of creating a story and working through the process of bringing characters to life. It gives me so much joy to see how Izzy and the other women in the series have developed—it feels like they have begun to direct me as to what they will say and do, given the general circumstances of a scene. I just write what they put in my head. It feels quite seamless and organic.
Everyone has had a moment when they feel the satisfaction or excitement of seeing something they worked hard on succeed. To be able to literally hold that in my hand was thrilling.
Then the panic set it. I have so much to do. I’ve had a small business before and I know that in order to succeed, people need to know you exist. This is no small task. I’m trying not to go crazy and obsess but it can be easier said than done for this eager writer.
I am starting to settle down now as it’s been six days and I’ve checked my ranking on Amazon about 3,000,000 times. It doesn’t help that I looked up how the ranking system works and could make no sense of it. I still go look incessantly, just to see… well, I don’t really know. I don’t get it.
What I came to realize is the real reason I’m trying to hustle through the marketing and self-promotion (even the wording makes me gag a little): I just want to get back to the writing. I’m so close to being done my first draft of the second instalment to the Izzy Walsh Mystery series that now I’m trying desperately to finish everything else off so I can get back to the joy of writing (although after my second round of edits I had to pause and pick up a copy of English grammar 101).
So, my conclusion is that I will stop obsessing online and temper the marketing attempts with allowing for time to get back to the writing. What a relief!
Just a few thoughts I wanted to share.